John Williams, probably the most recognizable name of modern Hollywood film scores, has given us the iconic soundtracks to little indie pictures such as Jaws, Close Encounters of the Third Kind, Indiana Jones, E.T., and, of course, Star Wars. The music is at once timeless and nostalgic, allowing us all to sink cozily back into the days when Amblin ruled our childhoods as we listen through each score over and over. All of us, that is, except John Williams.

Speaking with The Mirror, Williams revealed that he never looks back on his work once it’s over with, and never in his life has he watched a Star Wars movie.

I have not looked at the Star Wars films and that’s absolutely true. When I’m finished with a film, I’ve been living with it, we’ve been dubbing it, recording to it, and so on. You walk out of the studio and, ‘Ah, it’s finished.’ Now I don’t have an impulse to go to the theater and look at it. Maybe some people find that weird, or listen to recordings of my music very, very rarely.

On one hand, this sounds pretty weird, but on the other, it actually makes some sense. By the time a composer finishes writing a score (unless they do it without seeing any footage, which sometimes happens) they’ve already pretty much seen the movie a million times anyway. There are plenty of actors and directors and superhero costume designers who don’t watch their work when they’re done with it, preferring instead to start on the next thing. Looking back at it afterward might just seem exhausting and awkward, and it may be a relief to finally move on. Kind of like how I never look back at any of my college papers.

Williams will be back to compose the score for Star Wars: Episode VIII.